My husband went to heaven January 22, 2004. He was a general contractor in construction and I was his assistant. He did all types of construction; concrete, remodels, additions, roofing, etc. and I worked with him everyday; we were together 24/7 (according to current terminology). My life changed in a heartbeat, literally. I was 48 years old and I had a 14 year old son to provide for. To say I had opportunity to fear would be an understatement.
A friend, by the Spirit of God, wrote these words to me, " God has a plan for your life Kathy, and it's revealed in the gospel." Those words ministered life to me that day and they continue to minister to me today. After the funeral, Doyle called me and in our conversation he asked me what I was going to do and all I could say was, "I don't know, I'm just going to have to believe God will provide what I need," and his reply was, "he will". I had been considering my options and they seemed pretty limited. What I didn't understand at the time was, God had been preparing me for that day, long before it arrived. I certainly didn't think I had the knowledge or skill to run a construction business, however I had learned a few things and one of those was painting.
Within a week, I received a phone call from a person who asked me if I would consider a painting job and of course I said yes. I finished that job and soon had others. The Lord put people in my life to show me how to figure bids and put together proposals, others to help me learn about the spray-rig, and I've been painting ever since.
Everyday there is opportunity to fear and doubt, but it's also an opportunity to repent and believe that whatever we need for that day, Jesus has already accomplished it.
One day I was having a conversation with someone and telling them all I was doing and they brushed all that aside and simply said, "You just have to believe, Kathy." I than God for the opportunity to share this, because in doing so, I am being convinced of my own unbelief and this is the mercy of God, that I may repent, believe and overcome.